Stay with me, baby stay with me
Tonight, don't leave me alone
Walk with me
Come and walk with me
To the edge of all we've ever known
I can see you there with the city lights
Forteenth floor pale blue eyes
I can breathe you in
Two shadows standing by the bedroom door
You know I could not want you more
Then I did right then
As our heads leaned in

well I'm not sure what this going to be
But with my eyes clentched all I see
Is the sky line through the window
The moon above you and the streets below
Hold my breath as you're moving in
Taste your lips and feel your skin
When the time comes
Baby don’t run, just kiss me slowly

Stay with me, baby stay with me
Tonight, don't leave me alone (me alone)
She shows everything she used to know
Picture frame and country roads
When days were long, and the world was small
She stood by has it fell apart
Seperate rooms and broken hearts
But I won't be the one to let you go
Ohhhh

I'm not sure what this going to be
But with my eyes clentched all I see
Is the sky line through the window
The moon above you and the streets below
Hold my breath as you're moving in
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Taste your lips and feel your skin
When the time comes
Baby don’t run, just kiss me slowly

Don't run away....
And it's hard to love again
When the only way it's been
When the only love you knew
Just walked away.
It gets something that you want
Darling you don't have to run
You don't have to go

Just Stay with me, baby stay with me
Well I'm not sure what this is going to be
But with my eyes closed all I see
Is the sky line through the window
The moon above you and the streets below
Hold my breath as you're moving in
Taste your lips and feel your skin
When the time comes
Baby don’t run just kiss me slowly

I'm not sure where this is going to go
But in this moment all I know
Is the sky line through the window
The moon above you and the streets below
Hold my breath as you're moving in
Taste your lips and feel your skin
When the time comes baby
Don’t run just kiss me slowly

Complicated.

Wow. It has been a really long time since I've blogged. But my life has just gotten so much more complicated. If I had to list down all of them, 10 minutes won't be enough. Okay main problem. I think I'm going insane here. I'm doing things I know I shouldn't do. And no, they're not illegal. I regret it once I do it. But before I just keep on thinking about it. And it bugs me till I really go nuts. Yeah so I don't think I have that one person to tell now since EOYs are coming at breakneck speed, and everyone's busy studying. So yeah. I shall emo at a corner and tell spongebob. I think I somehow admire the people who stay in America. Generally Americans. No, not because of the economic instability, but because of the freedom to do what they want to do. And how nice it'll be if I can actually escape to there, even if it's just for one month. It'll make me happy at least. Think I'll be able to forget some stuff. So yeah. Shant blog anymore xD <--- wow first emoticon. Okay goodnight.

He's got more swagger than you :D

hahaha~ I'm officially married~ to Sidra~ Wheee!~ saranghae heheheh. life is good nowadays~ for all the papers that i have gotten back so far, i passed:D and... lifes just awesome like that hahaha~

hi~ its been a long time. :D i had a nice moment on the bus today. I was looking out of the window, and stared at the clouds. I wondered why the clouds can float there in the sky, so free,no worries. I wondered how it can change from nice fluffy white clouds, to dark stormy ones. What makes these changes? of course, its the amount water that condenses and joined to that specific cloud. Humans are like clouds. People are like clouds. We can choose to either believe in things, or we can think it had ever happened before. But has one ever stopped to think, " what if this happened? why didnt this happen? why must it happen to me? why doesnt this happen to me? why does it happen to them? are people forever biased? Are there really no circumstances where everybody would gain from it? I realised that we should just live at the standard pace, that is one with no worries and no stress nor expectations. that DEFINITELY would increase the life of oneself. But obviously, life isnt that simple. What we really need is for people to really understand the concept of living well. there is no specific meaning to the word "well". It is what you really think. its how you define yourself. you decide what is you want, what you go through, what you say to people etc. It all boils down to the decisions one make. whatever you decide is a tile added to the road you are gonna walk through for the rest of your life. If you have places the tiles on the wrong route for a long time, you wouldn't have that much time to go back to where you went wrong and tile the right road. So why not make the right decisions? Why not? Because what you decide is not what you might like in future, but what you think is the most applicable at the situation at hand. SO you may make the wrong decisions. So think about your path in life before tiling your path of life. Tile it with not regrets.

Just hug me onceD:

I need u (I need)
I want u (I want)
I luv u (I luv)

Hug me only once
Smile only once
Feel it only once
Smile only once
Once, once, once, once
Hug me just once
Hug me once

When you hug me once
You’ll know my heart is beating
My heart is here beating
faster than the clock

The whole world can hear
the sound of my heart thump thump
Why are you the only one who can’t hear it?
Come a little closer
Listen to my heart

Like a sweet whipping cream
infiltrating softly for you
(Kiss me your love for me)
What can I do about something so sweet and sour?
I like you so much

Hug me only once
Smile only once
Feel it only once
Smile only once
Once, once, once, once
Hug me just once
Hug me once

Wait for a moment
I’m going to shake this up
I can only imagine
my heart in the sky

Because of you I can’t do anything
except thinking about you tonight again
Everyday I think about U
Everynight I wanna with U

What can I do? What can I really do about it?
I keep wanting to see you
(Honey, don’t tease me)
Where is my love?
Because of you I’m really going crazy

Hug me only once
Smile only once
Feel it only once
Smile only once
Once, once, once, once
Hug me just once
Hug me once

lalala lalalala lalala lalalala
I wanna be ur luver
I wanna be ur luver
I wanna be ur luver

Covered with tears
Painful tears
are flowing and flowing
Trying to reach you
I need you
I need you
I need you

Hug me only once
Smile only once
Feel it only once
Smile only once
Once, once, once, once
Hug me just once
Hug me once

Hug me only once
Smile only once
Feel it only once
Smile only once
Once, once, once, once
Hug me just once
Hug me once

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Champagne Showers

YO~ haha i am blogging very... un-often now haha~ OMG i have no more time to do anything! CAs in week 5, EOY exams in week 3 next term!! I am screwed. So i officially unactivated my facebook account. Hopefully that works!! hehe although i would miss talking to some people there... what the heck:D im gonna reactivate it for the September Holidays but deactivate it again when school reopens! HOPE I WONT BE SO SCREWED THIS SEMESTER!!!!!!!!

hehehe awesome song!!! 

Beef Tuesday:D:D

HAHA. i only have one thing to say about the title: PASTAMANIA <3
okay. So tooday there was footdrill. Yeah i suck at footdrill, but it was nice talking to the juniors today hehehe~ also, i tried to make fatin realise how little time she has left the choreograph the dance :D can't wait to see ma E3 buddies again hahaha~ but we damn busy>.< cant really fit in to our schedules.... sad.... hmm... so i decided to use a very BOOM song haha ffor the dance:D just wait~ it will be awesome!!~

Yay~ finally got myself to blog again:) I had a h2h talk with a guy a few days ago~ and I finally understand a lot of things. I can finally understand and see things from their side haha. So to say~ it's really fascinating man~ but I really am thankful that he actually let me rant out my feelings~ he too told me how he felt~^^ nowadays, I really can't help but think if someone has ever thought of me for at least 1 minute before. Had ever been in their mind before. I wanna have that happen. Hehe. Instead of me pining for that someone, I want someone to have that for me. So nice:) haha. I don't want to be the one to start to conversation all the time. Sometimes I just wish others would. Yeah... Just waiting for the day...

what happened to me...?

NOTHING HAPPENED TO ME!~ haha i just went awol for awhile cos i didnt know what to blog about:D but now i have~ wheeee~ EHL camp was so awesome:D met so many awesome friends!!~ I.E sec 1, darryl, etcetc:D:D i totally dont regret going!! maybe partly cos its my first time going with pau and shar to rc hq events~ hope i can take part in these events in future~!!

haha hi:D nowadays i get bored easily... lol dont know why:D then... yay i finished 2 books:D hehe i got 4 more to go... then i am gonna go buy more books to read~ i can take advantage of the june holidays to read all the books:D hehehe so fun~~

Regrets

The scars of your love remind me of us,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
I can't help feeling,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)

I totally love rolling in the deep:) hehe. Many regrets stay with us for the rest of our lives. Regrets are not worth harping over. But once in awhile, when I do so happen to come across you. You will die under my hands. I swear to god. You caused me so much pain; agony. You will feel how I felt.

My life so far haha

biggest lies a girl will tell;
1. I love your outfit!
2. I hate him.
3. I don't like anyone...
4. I'm not mad at you.
5. I finished my homework.
6. I don't care what you think of me.
7. I don't want to be popular.
8. I love my life!
9. I feel sick, I can't go to school...
10. NO, REALLY, I'M FINE.


Hahaha hi~
So how has life been so far for you~ must have been fun huh~ hahaha I decided to go for dance classes~ hehe but obviously I am not gonna go alone~ I'm getting Daphne to go tgt with me hehehe. Lol. So. Yeah... It still bothers me. Maybe I can't accept it cos I have finally gotten closer and if I see them, I guess this whole trust will fall apart. I just can't accept it somehow. Lol. So don't try to change my mind about it. By the way. It's abt one of the ppl in my school haha. Hmm. Yeah. So. Lol. Blogging cos I can't really sleep and stuff. But heck it. Lol. Haha it's so weird. Meida and I are exchanging letters~ lol even though I see her in school lol~^^

Hais nothing else to blog abt alr lol shall go now bb

Hahah hi~ lol today was so funXD had a small bonding session with Nicole ax and Meida~ lol. But now I feel so EMO haha donno why. Like when we were going around Singapore I was reminiscing the past and stuff, then just 10-15minutes ago I went back to thinking about my primary school friend. Wow. Seriously. Hais it's so sad seriously. I donno why oso haha. I thought of the time we went to Chinatown for some learning journey thing, and we kinda sneaked off. Haha then we went to but matching keychains and stuff~ and she had the same phone as me and we bought the same key chain~ I kinda still remember what she told me. She was the one who could tell if I was sad or really upset about something by just looking into my eyes. Lol. And she was the only person who ever stood up for me. Ever. In my whole entire life. Seriously. Hais. But no point thinking about it lol i bet she doesn't miss me at all. Lallaala whatever shall just forget about it.

Long time...

Haha hai~ I'm blogging again after so long>.< but I have to blog fast and go to sleep soon cos tmr is the ss paper!! OMG so nervous!! Haha hope I don't fail. I really don't wanna end up in remedial again hahaha. Hmm. Yay I finally got myself to choreograph the dance~ it's gonna be faster than my previous dance. But it's by Britney spears too lol hahaha tis year is her year for me man~ gonna use props>.< haha hope they like the choreography though. Lol. But the thing is I don't really wanna go to the campfire. Lets just say there is bad blood between me and some dudes there currently. Hais. Haha and I haven't learnt the dance yet. Meida nvr teach me.>.< gosh I'm screwed. Hahaha but I will make our schools performance the best one of the night~ Holla hahahaha okay I shall stop now bb~^^

what do you think?~

hi~ hahaha im finally blogging again~ whoots!^^ haha imma happy person~ wheee~
lol im like some psycho person~ LOL okay hhahahahmm...i kinda have LOTS to say... but i dont know if its gonna come out in wirds haha~some may be sound effects >.<

okay soooo.... IM TREASURER and EXTERNAL PROGRAM COORDINATOR for red cross~ hehehe being the epc sure is hard and complicated... i gotta do lots of planning etc~ luckily got ax and melissa's help~ my english exam was on friday... and the compo topic was FACEBOOK hahaha so i wrote that compo, but i think i just killed myself...>,<

well... life has so far been alright... its just that i dont know how to study for chinese...>.< plus i have 2.4 on wednesday... although i know i am gonna pass this time... i dont wanna run again... so boring... hahaha~

Any idiot can face a crisis - it's day to day living that wears you out.
Anton Chekhov

Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact.
William James

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.
Buddha

~.~
shall go off now and study>.< hahhaha bb~

Farewell

Yay~ heheh farewell was awesome~! we had such an awesome time with the ma'ams haha I remember the first night, after we went back to the toa payoh from the tuition centre, we(me and ax) took neoprints haha>.< then after that the 6 of us: me, Pauline, Shar yuen, Meida, Ai Xin and Yu Mei watched rio hahaha~ it was super funny man! After the movie we walked back to the chalet then I decided to go for a walk... Haha then Meida joined me. I wasn't expecting to go for a long time but haha we stayed until 5.30 in the morning. XD wad we talked about and sang about was epic haha~ that was the only time I actually said things without even really thinking if what I said was actually appropriate. Lol. This was like the only time I had ever talked to Meida so seriously and free-and-easy-ly before lol. We knew that the direct thing would only last for a short time:) but we sang our hearts out hahaha xD when we got bac to the chalet Yu Mei was already awake. By 6.30 we left the chalet to go to the beach. We didn't sleep btw. I was with Pauline and Shar yuen when we were at the beach while the others went to macs. Haha that was my EmO state hahaha. Then I asked Shar and pau to go back to the chalet first while I msged someone. Then I was so emo-ly walking back to the chalet, while playing with my phone I heard Meida haha I was seriously surprised. I didn't know she would come and find me HAHAAHHAHAHA~ XD omg I stopped blogging to nap for a while but I slept until 5.39 in the morning... Haha epic lol. Yay on the bus now... Lol. But I'm not done with the post haha okay. My don't forget the lyrics station was seriously damn fail man!!! Hahahah hmm. Now I don't know wad to say hahaha shall stop here haha bb~^^

When you're in love
Everything feels like it goes your way
And when you're in love
Everyday feels like the perfect day
And I hope that I feel this way forever
Hope that it's me and you together
And I don't wanna waste another moment
It's just me and you girl
And cupid has done it again.

Chorus:
Got my head spinning around and around and around
And again here we go
Got my head spinning around and around and around.

I don't know
Where I would be if it wasn't for you
But one thing's for sure
I'm so glad that I don't have to be without you
So I hope that I feel this way forever
And I hope that it's me and you together yeah
And I don't wanna waste another moment
It's just me and you girl
And cupid has done it again.

Chorus:
Got my head spinning around and around and around
And again here we go
Got my head spinning around and around and around.

It's just me and you girl
And cupid has done it again
Got my head spinning around and around and around
And again here we go
Got my head spinning around and around and around.

Lol okay. I'm blogging again. Weee~^^. Hahaha lol. Okay truthfully speaking, I wish you were here. I wish that there is a person I can share all my pain with. A person that I can lean on and trust. A person who gives me security. I really need someone right now. But it seems that it's not gonna go right for me.

Maybe it's just too early to think about it.
If you already have it, treasure it. If you don't, you shouldn't discriminate it. The way you tell me about it, the wAy you say that she is over her head right now, got me thinking and assuming that you are an Ass. I have no idea why you are reacting this way. Seriously. K. I need someone I can relate to. She needs someone she can relate to. I try really hard. Really hard to help her with any means possible. But when you do that. It pisses her off and that makes my life worse. Don't you think that you should be more of an angel than a bitch? Huh? Seriously. She is currently at a point where she really needs our support and by doing so, you are not helping her. If you continue teasing her, seriously nothing will work out in the end. So what if she text messages. So what if she hides her phone from us. So what if she doesn't let you see who she is texting. Must you care so much? Huh? After watching glee. How Santana turned out to be a lesbian, I have been seriously thinking about your behavior. I think that if you continue doing that it will make things all worse. You hug her, tease her and emo in front of her. This gives me the feeling that you are trying to get her attention. It ain't so pretty. And you. You are just so bloody paranoid. Everythig also have to bother. Everything you also have to know. And every single thing you will think until so complicated. You must get attention to yourself. You must get the credit for doing such stuff. Yeah you made people cry before but you have never replied to their cries. You just hate them more. You think that you will be the chairperson. Thats what you told me. Well. I can't tell you for sure but you don't have to manipulate everything that you know such that It all leads to you bring chairperson. Yeah that's about it. What I wanted to say.

I wish you were here. We can relive what we went through 4 years ago. We can look out for each other. I really wish you came back. I wanna crap with you. I wanna reminisce the times we had together. You were by far the best best friend I had ever had. And you still are.

Now with all the back stabbing, it's really hard to find your best friend. It's extremely hard. I want you to realize that, it doesnt mean that you are my best friend even though you have been through a lot with me. No one has ever stood up for me ever since primary school. I think that the basics of a best friend is that you have to stand up for one another. If you are being bullied. I would help you. If I were bullied. You woul help me. We will have the best times of our lives doing things I have never thought of doing. Together with you. I miss you terribly. I want you to come back. I need someone right now. But no one seems to really care. This is what secondary school life is about. What you didn't expect.

Best friends would not talk bad about each other behind Their backs. They would say it in their Faces and not feel angry. I just wanna have some one I can rely on. It's a really simple request. But it's nearly impossible to have it fulfilled.

0330

나 아직도 너를 지울 수 없어
na ajikdo noreul jiul su obso
자꾸자꾸 니가 생각나
jakkujakku niga senggangna
니가 너무 보고 싶어
niga nomu bogo sipo
밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어
bamse hansumdo jal su obso
내 맘 창문을 두드리는 빗소리
ne mam changmuneul dudeurineun bissori
니가 떠나 버린 그자리
niga ttona borin geujari
너무나도 그리워서
nomunado geuriwoso
밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어 난
bamse hansumdo jal su obso nan

빗길 비켜 지나가는 너의 뒷 모습 / 아무 것도 할 수 없는 나는 거듭
bitgil bikyo jinaganeun noye dwit moseup / amu gotdo hal su omneun naneun godeup
해서 매일 난 또 후회를 해 미안해 / 기도해 I want you to be back
heso meil nan tto huhwereul he mianhe / gidohe I want you to be back
I can't 견딜 수 없어 네가 / 없는 하루니까 참을 수 없어 눈가에 눈물 흘러 내가
I can't gyondil su obso nega / omneun harunikka chameul su obso nun-gae nunmul heullo nega
again 너를 잊을 수 있을까 / 언제까지 나는 이럴까
again noreul ijeul su isseulkka / onjekkaji naneun irolkka

나 아직도 너를 지울 수 없어
na ajikdo noreul jiul su obso
자꾸자꾸 니가 생각나
jakkujakku niga senggangna
니가 너무 보고 싶어
niga nomu bogo sipo
밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어
bamse hansumdo jal su obso
내 맘 창문을 두드리는 빗소리
ne mam changmuneul dudeurineun bissori
니가 떠나 버린 그자리
niga ttona borin geujari
너무나도 그리워서
nomunado geuriwoso
밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어 난
bamse hansumdo jal su obso nan

오 이런 오늘밤도 오늘밤도 Her
o iron oneulbamdo oneulbamdo Her

밤새 너만 생각해 나는 잘 수 없어 / why did i turn on this love show
bamse noman senggakhe naneun jal su obso / why did i turn on this love show
너와 나의 사인 멀어졌어 / 내가 이 사랑의 하인이었어
nowa naye sain morojyosso / nega i sarang-eui hainiosso

Why did we fight 우린 왜 이랬는데
Why did we fight urin we irenneunde
Did you lose the sight 우린 사랑했는데
Did you lose the sight urin saranghenneunde
내가 왜 이 순간 멈춰 있는데 바보야 내가 필요한 건 바로 너야
nega we i sun-gan momchwo inneunde baboya nega piryohan gon baro noya

어깨가 축 늘어져 있는 너 / 한숨만 땅 꺼지게 쉬는 너
okkega chuk neurojyo inneun no / hansumman ttang kkojige swineun no
답답한 가슴만 탕탕 치는 너 / 두손 모아 하늘에게 기도 하는 너
dapdaphan gaseumman tangtang chineun no / duson moa haneurege gido haneun no
일거라고 모습이 나는 상상이 가 / 우리 다 잊자 지우자 나쁜 기억들을 다
ilgorago moseubi naneun sangsangi ga / uri da itja jiuja nappeun giokdeureul da
(I'm sorry) 너가 어떨지 알아 / 미안하단 말 밖에 할 수 없는 나
(I'm sorry) noga ottolji ara / mianhadan mal bakke hal su omneun na

나 아직도 너를 지울 수 없어
na ajikdo noreul jiul su obso
자꾸자꾸 니가 생각나
jakkujakku niga senggangna
니가 너무 보고 싶어
niga nomu bogo sipo
밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어
bamse hansumdo jal su obso
내 맘 창문을 두드리는 빗소리
ne mam changmuneul dudeurineun bissori
니가 떠나 버린 그자리
niga ttona borin geujari
너무나도 그리워서
nomunado geuriwoso
밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어 난
bamse hansumdo jal su obso nan

오 이런 오늘밤도 오늘밤도 Her
o iron oneulbamdo oneulbamdo Her

some of the) Girl dictionary

"Whatever": (used after a fight) I'm too mad or upset to talk to you.

"Taylor Swift" : (popular singer)
She writes songs about her feelings; she makes us feel like we're not alone.

"Thingy" : (name of object)
The name we say when we can't remember something's real name.

"I guess I like him" : (said out loud)
I totally like him!

"I'm bored" : (used in a text message)
I was thinking about you, and want to talk to you.


"I'm fine" : (said out loud)
I am about to cry my f***ing eyes out.


OMG THIS IS BLOODY TRUE:;D HAHAHAHAHA 

hehehe~ this song is just awesome~ and the way they sing and dance to it, ahhh~ hahaha. i skipped remedial today~ hoo-rah!! haha and mr mutalib was nice enough to let me off~ hehehe but i am kinda feeling unwelll... guess the flu bug caught me a little late>.< lol

hmm... nowadays, i dont really think abt stuff anymore. emo stuff, that is. i feel like it just distracts me from reality. what is happening now and what is going to happen in the future should be our main focus. we should not just cling on to the past.its just wrong. i feel that we have to move on, even when things hurt. A HELL LOT. so just keep ranting, and the feeling goes away somehow. although before i seelp i might still think about it, about nice scenes that act out in my head... i still think it is impossible for it to really happen to me in real life, and that i was just living in a fantasy. but now its long gone. i shall just focus on the future. the future is unpredictable. but isnt that the fun part of it all~

if you want things to go your way, you have to work real hard for it to actually happen. if you just cling on to the past, you will never heal~
if you are affected by something that happened a long time ago, you should fix it. there must be some kind of psychological barrier that is blocking you, refraining you from actually successfully advancing forward. if you want to, and i really mean the strong flames of desire, you should just forgive and forget.

like i always tell myself, hating a person just takes too much energy. wont you have a lesser stressed life if you didnt have something that could be corrected there?

with that behaviour of yours, i really dont feel like going. seriously. if everything is our fault, then the earthquakes in Myanmar and Japan are caused by our gigantic failure? and the ozone depletion is caused by our lack of discipline? haha~ it sounds funny when its phrased like that... but face it. people have flaws. if no one have a flaw, the person would rust as soon as it goes into the pouring rain. you know why? that person is a robot. human err. all the time. what we can stop or prevent is the negative path after the failure. why can you jsut take the harder path that is less smooth, but in the end, when you reach the nice sunset rainbow valley all that pain and effort was worth it. and you look back, thinking that the decisions that you made were all worth it, and the pains that you felt through this process was all paid off when you see the perfect scenery?

Think about it.

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Hi~ I am back to blog again hahaha. Okay. So as you can see from the title, I will be mentioning my squadmates throughout this post. Lol. Okay.
What I can observe nowadays is that some of my squadmates are still delinquent in the way they think. Maybe it's just their personally views but I feel that after hearing whatever that they said, it's kinda unfair. Well. The main( okay maybe not main lol but...) problem in my squad is text messages. People are so interested to see what we messaged, who we messaged, and then the whole topic of conversation would be on that. Lol. I personally think that messaging is just fine. But I don't like to message too much cos I don't wanna waste money lol. So. Fo example. Meida didn't have to steal my phone. And I shouldn't have stolen hers. We both have mutual trust between us. But once we did that, the trust slowly disappeared. However, I still DO NOT REMEMBER WHATEVER I HAVE SEEN SO DON'T QUESTION ME ANYMORE LOL. okay then as for Meida... We lol she is one year older than me lol. Stealing my phone was just plain childish>.< lol~^^. Haahha. As for my other squadmates, hmm .... A word of advice: don't take what you see on the outside to be what the person really is on the inside hahaha okay I shall go check if the agenda is out~^^
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Hi. Okay I shall blog about stuff and come to a conclusion. So I would be processing my thought as I type. Therefore it might not be understandable. Okay here it goes. So when I said yesterday that I really wanted to forget about it, I really meant it. But today when I saw what I saw, my heart started racing, I felt a tingling feeling inside, and my hand felt cold. After that I kept on thinking of the same thing. Throughout the whole day. But now it got better lol. So what does it mean? It must mean important if not it wont keep popping up. But I just feel that I really don't want this to be one-sided. It's torture. So I really wanna forget about it and move on. But it's really hard. Taking into consideration that I will keep on getting reminded about it. Every single day. I just have to think about the negative points. But I just can't. Okay. So I might still feel that way, but it's not worth it. I bet it would NOT last anyway. Plus the feelings not mutual. So I shall therefore forget abt it. Hais. I just envy her and him. They have this mutual feeling towards each other. Even if they don't admit it. Lol... >.<

Maybe I'm wrong
You decide
Shoulda been strong
Yet I lied
Nobody gets me like you
Couldn't keep hold of you then
How could I know what you meant
There was no friend to compare to
There's a mountain between us
But there's one thing I'm sure of
That I know how I feel about you

Can we bring yesterday back around
Cause I know how I feel about you now
I was dumb I was wrong
I've let you down
But I know how I feel about you now

I'll bet it takes one more chance
Don't let our next kiss be our last
I'm outta my mind just to show you
I know everything changes
I don't care where it takes us
Cause I know how I feel about you

Can we bring yesterday back around
Cause I know how I feel about you now
I was dumb I was wrong
I've let you down
But I know how I feel about you now

Not a day passed me by
Not a day passed me by
When I don't think about you
And no moving on
Cause I know you're the one
And I can't be without you

Can we bring yesterday back around
Cause I know how I feel about you now
I was dumb I was wrong
I've let you down
But I know how I feel about you now
Can we bring yesterday back around
Cause I know how I feel about you now
I was dumb I was wrong
I've let you down
But I know how I feel about you now

And I know how I feel about you now
Yea I know how I feel about you now

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Okay. Haha so before this I posted some song lyrics. Yeah haha it's by avril. Haha the songs are awesome~^^ okay so after chatting this Sidra abt personal stuff, she made it clear somewhat to me lol. okay so she calls one guy a playboy, the other a geek and the last one. .. Lol she said weird stuff abt the last one. Sadi that he likes me LOL I do t really see any relations to the topic at hand man!!! Anyway right. Nowadays I have been talking to Isaac. Lol he is the first guy that tries to continue the conversation. Haha so cute~ usually I have to super spam guys before the convo comes alive again hahaha. He's funny~^^ okay. So... Hmm haha I don't really know what to blog... Lol okay today was epic. I experienced many life changing scenarios. You know when these things happen it just changes your mindset of people. I really can't... Comprehend the situation now. Oh gosh. Complications. Anyway the good thing is that I found out that music is my drug. Whenever I feel sad I listen to the radio and I feel better afterthat. When I feel confused, music makes thugs clear to me haha. I'm a really weird person tee hee. Oh right!! Ma'am ruthie and ma'am deneice visited us today haha they were awesome~^^ yay I still like ma'am deneice haha that charismatic aura that she has~^^. Anyway, I <3 english music more now for some reason. Haha but it makes me happyXD but it's extremely vulgar haha. No one should ever talk abt abs within a 100 m distance from me. If not I will go back to the slump mode I was in a few days ago. Yeah and Sidra had to happily mention his name. You know what. She is right abt one thing. He is a playboy who plays with ppls feelings. But too bad I feel attracted to him and feel that he looks totally hot. Especially when he wore glasses on Saturday. This I'd not the ahem lol its the cuter more hot one hahaha

Oak shall go now haha hope you know more abt my love life after reading LOL bb~^^

I can be tough

I can be strong

But with you it's not like that at all

There's a girl

Who gives a shit

Behind this wall

You've just walked through it

And I remember all those crazy things you said

You left them riding through my head

You're always there you're everywhere

But right now I wish you were here.

All those crazy things we did

Didn't think about it just went with it

You're always there you're everywhere

But right now I wish you were here

Damn Damn Damn

What I'd do to have you

Here here here

I wish you were here.

Damn Damn Damn

What I'd do to have you

Near near near

I wish you were here.

I love the way you are

It's who I am don't have to try hard

We always say say like it is

And the truth is that I really miss

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All those crazy things you said

You left them riding through my head

You're always there you're everywhere

But right now I wish you were here.

All those crazy things we did

Didn't think about it just went with it

You're always there you're everywhere

But right now I wish you were here

[Chorus:]

Damn Damn Damn

What I'd do to have you

Here here here

I wish you were here.

Damn Damn Damn

What I'd do to have you

Near near near

I wish you were here.

[Bridge:]

No I don't wanna let go

I just wanna let you to know

That I never wanna let go

(let go let go let go let go)

No I don't wanna let go

I just wanna let you to know

That I never wanna let go

(let go let go let go let go let go let go let go)

Damn Damn Damn

What I'd do to have you

Here here here

I wish you were here (I wish you were)

Damn Damn Damn

What I'd do to have you

Near near near

I wish you were here.

Damn Damn Damn

What I'd do to have you

Here here here

I wish you were here.

Damn Damn Damn

What I'd do to have you

Near near near

I wish you were here.

La la
La la la la
La la
La la la la
I like your smile
I like your vibe
I like your style
But that’s not why I love you

And I, I like the way
You’re such a star
But that’s not why I love you
Hey
Do you feel, do you feel me?
Do you feel what I feel, too?
Do you need, do you need me?
Do you need me?

[chorus]
You’re so beautiful
But that’s not why I love you
I’m not sure you know
That the reason I love you is you
Being you
Just you
Yeah the reason I love you is all that we’ve been through
And that’s why I love you

La la
La la la la
La la
La la la la
I like the way you misbehave
When we get wasted
But that’s not why I love you
And how you keep your cool
When I am complicated
But that’s not why I love you

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Hey
Do you feel, do you feel me?
Do you feel what I feel, too?
Do you need, do you need me?

Do you need me?

[chorus]
You’re so beautiful
But that’s not why I love you
And I’m not sure you know
That the reason I love you is you
Being you
Just you
Yeah the reason I love you is all that we’ve been through
And that’s why I love you

Yeah – Oh.
Oh.

Even though we didn’t make it through
I am always here for you
You

Hey
Do you feel, do you feel me?
Do you feel what I feel, too?
Do you need, do you need me?
Do you need me?

[chorus]
You’re so beautiful
But that’s not why I love you
I’m not sure you know
That the reason I love you is you
Being you
Just you
Yeah the reason I love you is all that we’ve been through
And that’s why I love you

La la
La la la la (oh oh)
La la
La la la la (That’s why I love you)

La la
La la la la (oh oh)
La la
La la la la (That’s why I love you)

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