Lol okay. I'm blogging again. Weee~^^. Hahaha lol. Okay truthfully speaking, I wish you were here. I wish that there is a person I can share all my pain with. A person that I can lean on and trust. A person who gives me security. I really need someone right now. But it seems that it's not gonna go right for me.

Maybe it's just too early to think about it.
If you already have it, treasure it. If you don't, you shouldn't discriminate it. The way you tell me about it, the wAy you say that she is over her head right now, got me thinking and assuming that you are an Ass. I have no idea why you are reacting this way. Seriously. K. I need someone I can relate to. She needs someone she can relate to. I try really hard. Really hard to help her with any means possible. But when you do that. It pisses her off and that makes my life worse. Don't you think that you should be more of an angel than a bitch? Huh? Seriously. She is currently at a point where she really needs our support and by doing so, you are not helping her. If you continue teasing her, seriously nothing will work out in the end. So what if she text messages. So what if she hides her phone from us. So what if she doesn't let you see who she is texting. Must you care so much? Huh? After watching glee. How Santana turned out to be a lesbian, I have been seriously thinking about your behavior. I think that if you continue doing that it will make things all worse. You hug her, tease her and emo in front of her. This gives me the feeling that you are trying to get her attention. It ain't so pretty. And you. You are just so bloody paranoid. Everythig also have to bother. Everything you also have to know. And every single thing you will think until so complicated. You must get attention to yourself. You must get the credit for doing such stuff. Yeah you made people cry before but you have never replied to their cries. You just hate them more. You think that you will be the chairperson. Thats what you told me. Well. I can't tell you for sure but you don't have to manipulate everything that you know such that It all leads to you bring chairperson. Yeah that's about it. What I wanted to say.

I wish you were here. We can relive what we went through 4 years ago. We can look out for each other. I really wish you came back. I wanna crap with you. I wanna reminisce the times we had together. You were by far the best best friend I had ever had. And you still are.

Now with all the back stabbing, it's really hard to find your best friend. It's extremely hard. I want you to realize that, it doesnt mean that you are my best friend even though you have been through a lot with me. No one has ever stood up for me ever since primary school. I think that the basics of a best friend is that you have to stand up for one another. If you are being bullied. I would help you. If I were bullied. You woul help me. We will have the best times of our lives doing things I have never thought of doing. Together with you. I miss you terribly. I want you to come back. I need someone right now. But no one seems to really care. This is what secondary school life is about. What you didn't expect.

Best friends would not talk bad about each other behind Their backs. They would say it in their Faces and not feel angry. I just wanna have some one I can rely on. It's a really simple request. But it's nearly impossible to have it fulfilled.