what i think personally...

what happened yesterday, was already considered half of the 'drama' done. it was the climax; what you told me, what she told me, and what you were doing. now what i can do now it to just wait really patiently for things to become better. I mean seriously, is something temporary really so much more important than something that will last for a longer time? seriously. even if you people really want the power so much, you shouldn't just leave your friends; you should treasure them. m'am fizah told me yesterday that i should treasure whatever is happening now. but how can i treasure it when i know that it will fall apart? its like being happy when the doctor has diagnosed you with cancer. i feel really hurt. right here. you just don't get it, do you? you, even if you think that you are the best, you should at least care for all your squadmates. do you think it is that easy being the only one trying so hard to get everyone back together? as 11? huh? when i mention melissa, you just comment that she doesn't do anything. do you even give her a chance to do anything? she wants to do stuff. not like she doesn't want to do. i know we are going to step up soon, and most of you, including me, yearn for the time to gain that power, and start bossing people around. that doesn't mean that we can just bully our other squadmates in the process. do you think it makes sense, that we have such a screwed up squad, but still control and try to fix the juniors problems? it doesn't work that way. seriously. even for pauline and sharyuen. just because they do not do things properly, and just play around, doesn't mean they are incapable of getting things done well. they just need time. i seriously don't get what's so great about being chair. seriously. you people act like its a life or death situation. don't you think that a more bonded squad and having better---greater friends around you is so much better than being the top? i seriously disagree with anyones theory of a leader, if it means that a leader have to be lonely. you know, its always lonely at the top. do you want to know why its lonely at the top? because you step on people, just to get what you want. you don't like something someone has done? you scold the person like shit. even if its your best friend. thats how being a power maniac changes you. go think about it don't you think that having a more enjoyable time with your friends while you are at the top is so much better compared to being lonely? friends last forever; power lasts only until its gone, passed to someone else.
wake up people! chances are that they have already chosen the top spots, and already chosen the roles for everyone. so stop trying so hard. you will slowly loose all your friends. i'm saying this as a friend, i hope you can rethink about your motives and reflect on your actions. i don't want to loose you as a good friend. Also, what the juniors said is true. don't just vent your anger on them at one time, then the next year, you change your behaviour towards them. i personally dont mind what post i get. seriously.

I see you drive round town with the guy i love, and i'm like forget you

if you wanna really enjoy the other 2> years in tkg, you  cant always act like a bitch. although everyone bitches, you dont have to be the one who always does.

im not angry, nor am i trying to scold you. you said "i always PMS" yeah so here is whats on my mind. so that you dont have another misconception yet again.